Keywords

Essay, motherhood, alzheimer's disease, family, child abuse

Abstract

Pebbles and Shards is a collection of personal essays based on family relationships that focus upon motherhood, responsibility, and the complexity of love and loss. The essays explore how people cope with the inevitability of loss and how they move beyond that loss to find something meaningful, perhaps even beautiful. They reflect upon success and failure in the face of loss and how, either way, life goes on, heedless of people’s desires and plans. The essays in Pebbles and Shards, while meant to stand alone, are thematically connected so that, read together, each story resonates with the others. In “Promises,” I explore the fear of watching my mother die of Alzheimer’s disease. In related essays “Frame by Frame” and “In Darkness,” I focus on my mother’s efforts to struggle with Alzheimer’s and how, as an adopted daughter, I underwent a role-reversal and became the mother figure. Other essays, such as “Heart of a Deadhead” and “Circus,” consider the mothering impulse, especially the guilt and conflict that so often accompany my desire to nurture others. In attempting to support and strengthen those who seem “weak,” I have sometimes found that my own actions and thoughts underscore a deeper weakness in myself. As a collection, Pebbles and Shards contemplates the suffering and joy that is a family

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Graduation Date

2013

Semester

Spring

Advisor

Bartkevicius, Jocelyn

Degree

Master of Fine Arts (M.F.A.)

College

College of Arts and Humanities

Department

English

Degree Program

Creative Writing

Format

application/pdf

Identifier

CFE0004704

URL

http://purl.fcla.edu/fcla/etd/CFE0004704

Language

English

Release Date

May 2018

Length of Campus-only Access

5 years

Access Status

Masters Thesis (Open Access)

Subjects

Arts and Humanities -- Dissertations, Academic, Dissertations, Academic -- Arts and Humanities

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